Words and traces II – winter 2013

Things move, let´s say that every thing moves with its own rhythm but what we perceive looks more like chaos and might be interpret as against our own rhythm most of the times. I understand more and more the single aspects of every rhythm in their individual approach to a natural melody.
Forget words like “stress”, expressions like “I don´t have time”, “Is too late”, “I am too old for this” or the abused term to delay things in the spanish culture “tomorrow”.
“Words and traces” is a portfolio entry, yet is more a memory journal or a space for changing the rhythm of the website, my artistic routine and also my way of thinking, sharing it with those who feel free to choose to read it. Thanks. Maybe what I am saying sounds familiar, maybe not. It does not matter at all. I am back on writing.
After being absorbed by the need to create and find productivity in everything I do, not as a contribution to the art, but more as a personal quest to the limits and capacities for my senses and as a fight against my own ego. Yes, the one that can determinate and control fears in order to choose which of the many individual aspects of my own self will conquer myself in this life time.
When I am tracing lines, tracing maps, writing words, reading words… I find less and less need to say something relevant and a stronger need to remain silent. Saying this I refer to the universal thought that one image says thousand words and silence speaks more than any word, and we don´t need any language to express this.
The world is changing, is being polarized. The same that is happening in the Universe, in the atmosphere, in the Solar System, is happening to us, citizens of a living planet. A higher conciousness is waking up inside of many… and as it does, there are many things that lose their position in a bigger scale, irrelevant things for human nature.
How is this affecting my art? Well, let´s say I arrived to the top of the mountain that I was climbing all these years behind. I was tired, exhausted, thirsty, hungry and happy.
When I got there, the view was amazing, undescriptible, like I was the king of a never ending kingdom of beauty and the majesty of nature gave me the inner peace I was desperately looking for. Then I realized, when I looked up, in the sky, that there were steps leading to an even higher top. But it was even more difficult to start walking towards that direction, because it was almost invisible. The sky could become cloudy, or rainy, or stormy… and not only that, but I would have to learn myself to fly if I wanted to get there… I trained myself how to fly, how to see through clouds, rain and thunder. I worked out to be strong enough to maintain the body when flying. I got a set of wings that make more difficult my situation, as they are heavy and when I am leading towards a wrong direction, I lose control over them.
Let´s say I understood that there is always a higher top but is not impossible to get there. Everyday I train to end the day with new wisdom and power, with more calm, forgetting that I am stronger than the past days and inspired by the fact that I will be even stronger tomorrow, but only if I continue working out this way. New and unexpected experience will be always appearing in my journey. I will meet many of you, some others might go somewhere else, others will never arrive. But this is just natural. Our nature is individual, our mountain tops look different, yet we belong to a same natural order from chaos and our mountain tops belong to a same space within time. Maybe you want to be in a castle on earth while I prefer to fly and discover castles in the air. Both options are right, none is better than other.
This is the way I am working my daily perception now. On my quest to unknown spaces beyond realities and with other needs to collaborate and inspire others, in order to expand consciousness through visualizations of reality and self expression.
This is why my artistic approach is changing. The line which I started to draw when I started drawing is not straight, is not even a line but many. The shape in which that line is revealing is still to be defined.
Before it was scary to look at it without seeing anything concrete. Now is safe to look at it and see that is something growing, moving, jumping from the paper, breathing.

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